This morning, I plugged into a contemplative prayer app that I just downloaded a week or so ago. It's excerpted from a book on Beginning Contemplative Prayer by Pauline Books & Media. The house was quiet after everyone left for school and work and I had some time before I had to leave. The voice on the audio is soothing and it's a good guide through a prayer experience. The one for today was effective because it directed you to picture yourself in some part of nature that you find beautiful. I can do that, I have done that when trying to pray. In my mind, I picture the likes of Rivendell from LOTR. Of course, in reality, if I inhabited Middle Earth, I would most likely live in a Hobbit-ey type house, but I digress. Tall, elegant trees and waterfalls it is! ...and Jesus quietly enters the scene and I'm next told that he approaches and asks how I'm doing and says, "I'm worried about you."
|A little hobbit house|
Monks at Unvirtuous Abbey - you should be. Self described as, "holier than thou, but not by much. Digital monks praying for first world problems. From our keyboard to God's ears." Go follow them on Twitter @UnvirtuousAbbey and remember - it's supposed to be funny. I have yet to get retweeted by the Monks, but I keep trying!
Finally, a prayer request if anyone is out there, for me as I'm making a couple of changes in my life and I need all the help I can get. Some of these changes may have some adverse effects, some of which I'm already experiencing, but the plan is to ride them out in hopes of being in a better place soon, probably right about the time Easter gets here. Lent is about making changes, I've read, and about making more room for God in one's heart and life. I'm hopeful that the Lord will fill up any empty spaces and help me to break down any last bastions that might be keeping him at arm's length. I ask too, for prayers, to fight off the thoughts of suicide that cloud my thoughts sometimes. I'd just like one day that I don't have any at all. Prayers of gratitude for having many blessings that are bigger than these thoughts.