So I've spent the better part of these quick takes in the negative for the most part - I've been trying to find some positives to cling to. I'm not very good at positives currently. I used to be quite an optimist -I'm not sure I have that in me anymore. Maybe if I throw some out here they will stick. My positives for today are: I have a fantastic husband who is handsome, committed, dedicated, hard working, funny, attentive, sensitive, and kind and not to mention at 40 years old - smoking hot. I'm sure it's a sin when I look around at other husbands and beam with pride over my "trophy husband" but I'm sorry, he's freakin hot and he just gets better with age. It's patently unfair. We also have a rock solid marriage which is often times the one thing I can cling to through all the crap. It is sometimes the only thing I'm 100% sure about. Despite my children wreaking havoc when they are home with me, my kids are smart, funny, beautiful, cute, and caring little human beings. I constantly feel like a failure as a parent, but I guess if they are doing okay out of my sight then I'm not failing totally. I have a nice, comfortable home. Sure there are stains on the carpet, our landscaping is lacking, there are fingerprints on every wall, and our décor is mostly crayons and glitter, but I'm lucky to have it. I have a wonderful furry companion of the Golden Retriever variety who absolutely, unabashedly worships me. Sometimes I feel she was sent to me to keep me alive sometimes. We don't have a lot of money and we are about to soon have a lot less, but we have everything we need and for that I'm grateful.
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